Alright, before you unsubscribe from my blog and text me in cold sweat, LET me explain.
I am NOT a Scientologist.
...... U CRAZY dawg?
What I am, however... is Curious.
Verry verrry curious.
As a result of this vibrational hunger for intrigue, contradiction and insight, the Universe keeps bestowing me with peculiar experiences and interactions...ones that leave me scratching my head and grinning like a kid who's thinking of what to ask Santa for Christmas.
A few months back, I met a gentleman, that for our purposes, we'll call Roger Rabbit. I was waitressing that night, and ended up taking care of him and his friend for dinner. Our mutual fascination was evident seconds in. RR used to belong to the church of S but decided it was high time to stop drinking the cool-aid. He's been sober for some years now.
Cheers to living & learning.
I am writing to share with you a recent breakthrough--- it concerns my re-understanding of the concept of responsibility.
(BTW-- if you're trying to make sense of the quote in the picture, don't bother --- it's mostly there for shock value because--- quite frankly, it don't make much sense)
after being privy to a new definition of this word, my perception of life sort of.... shifted.
Let me do my best to paraphrase:
Responsibility is the ability to deny anyone the right to interfere with your perception of your time, space, energy, choices, truth and to exercise full determination of all the above.
During one of my earliest relationships I referred to my intimate other as my (n)owner. It was a joke we had, where I coyly rebelled against my evident co- dependency by calling her my "not-owner". Strange; on many levels, I know. Well, let me tell you, it didn't fool either of us. OK, maybe just me, but I guess that was the whole point.
Is there a part of your life where you have consciously or subconsciously relinquished under the care, control or validation of someone else?
While it may feel easier to not assume full responsibility over the things that scare us, it eventually leads us deeper into insecurity and self doubt.
Whether its your self-esteem, money, ambition, or time that you wish to reclaim (mentally and actually), I encourage you to first declare that desire out loud.
I ___(your name)______ am ready to take full responsibility of ____________.
Let Life know that you are ready to take your role as "self-owner" seriously.
Do I all of a sudden feel super secure and capable? I'm not sure. But I certainty feel like I've learned how to own my experience, and with that comes a tingling sense of authority. And if there is something I like more than being coddled it's enjoying the inner peace of real power.